I am your lowly, debased servant Ya Allah!

Mohamedarif Suleman (Dar es salaam, Tanzania)

I look back at my life O Lord and I feel I haven’t done enough, or at times I feel completely empty thinking that if my time is already up, did I pay attention to the reason why you sent me here? But with a positive outlook, even if I were to start over again, how would I undo the hurt I have caused others through my gaze and glare, through my tongue or though my actions?

Imam Sajjad (AS) in his celebrated du’a no31 in Saheefa Sajjadiyya, implores thus:

“Grant me Your pardon as I have come to You in confession

Raise me from the stumbling block of sin as I have humbled my spirit before You”

And again in another place,

“Give me grace for actions that may wash off the taint of guilt from me

Let me die in Your creed and the credd of Your apostle, Muhammad (SAW), when You make me to die

O Lord, I repent unto You in this situation of my great sins and the small, of the open wrongs, the hidden ones and my old errors”

It is then my hope, Ya Allah, that through my acceptance and recognition of those actions that You forbade me from, I will have moved from this lowly debased position to a higher and better one.  Thereafter, I have fervent hope O my Lord, that Your forgiveness and the peace that You will infuse in the hearts of those who crave for my destruction on account of my excessive treatment of them, You will further elevate me till the day I have to meet You and account for my deeds and actions.

My environment is getting more corrupt by the day and I have little understanding of what my actions should now be especially when every other person I meet professes to know it all, and calls people to one path or another.  I rely solely on Your divine guidance, imparted upon us through the arrival of your revered messenger Muhammad (SAW).  The tenets he bequeathed upon the people is a prescription for the path to success, and so I shall have to hold unto that rope tightly, though the tumultuous dynamics of this transient world may shake me beyond my tolerance.

Give me the ability to protect my faith and my belief, and to shepherd my kin and my near ones to your guided path, otherwise we will surely be in a loss.  But I must confess O my Lord, that I being a wrong doer myself, I now find myself unable to tell my brother to follow Your guidance, for he thinks I am selfish and have an ulterior motive.  I see inaction or actions that are essentially contrary to Your teachings and the teachings of Muhammad (SAW), both inside my community and in the larger environment.  I also understand that advice and counsel in this my time, is dependent on the wealth and fortune of my forefathers, and if I do not have it, my brother refuses to take me seriously.  he measures suvvess in mundane ways, in kilos and pound sof gold and silver, and in one’s ability to speak in a loud tone, but my voice is at best a hushed tone, O my Lord.  So I rest my case and pray for things to change, for You to reckon us both for our actions and look at me benevolently, and with love for my inaction is not voluntary O Allah, but a question of adverse circumstance.

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Mohamedarif is a marketing professional and educationalist with a penchant for writing as a hobby since childhood. As he experimented writing about sporting events at first and then current affairs, he quickly developed a skill for observation of his environment and began to write on reform topics, especially in connection with the community. To further feed his pursuit of writing, he founded several newsletters and bulletins at his school and at the Husayni Madrasah in the 1980's, all the time learning from others already in the field not just about writing, but also about pre-press and production processes. He was also the editor-in-chief of the Knowledge Magazine in 1995–1996. A decade later, importing a flurry of ideas into his new home, Nairobi, he first founded a two page community newspaper then became a regular writer of the Friday Faculty before establishing the Community on Friday, a fully fledged Madrasah magazine in 1996. And while his writing at the community continued, he simultaneously started writing for a business weekly, pairing in with his newfound role as a marketing professional. During his time in Nairobi, he wrote several speeches for sitting chairmen and presidents while also giving some himself, developing his concurrent role as a public speaker and trainer.

With changing times and a decrease in advertising sponsorship, as well as a fall in overall readership, Mohamedarif transformed this publication into an electronic blog. Thus was born the Community on Friday in its present format.

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